MarlsAndMe has invited MaryMacdonald7, LilyEvans, WormtailPeter to chat
LilyEvans: peter why are you in girls chat again?
MarlsAndMe: because we need updates on the james situation
MarlsAndMe: and his away message is very concerning
WormtailPeter: which away message?
MaryMacdonald7: "operation keep moony from going feral"
MaryMacdonald7: what does that even mean?
WormtailPeter: oh that
WormtailPeter: it's just james being dramatic
LilyEvans: peter we can see you're lying
LilyEvans: going feral isn't normal james dramatic
LilyEvans: that's like serious dramatic
MarlsAndMe: also you all look like death this morning
MarlsAndMe: james is practically bouncing off the walls
MarlsAndMe: remus looks like he hasn't slept in days
MarlsAndMe: and sirius is even more brooding than usual
WormtailPeter: it's been a long week
MaryMacdonald7: peter we already know about the dick pic situation
MaryMacdonald7: and james's sexuality crisis
MaryMacdonald7: we just want to know what's happening NOW
WormtailPeter: oh you know about that?
LilyEvans: the whole school knows about that peter
LilyEvans: james put it on friendster
WormtailPeter: god he's an idiot
MarlsAndMe: so what's the current status?
MarlsAndMe: did remus finally give him a rating?
WormtailPeter: he gave him a 7.5 overall
WormtailPeter: but refused to rate the... specific photo
MaryMacdonald7: smart man
LilyEvans: but that's not why james's away message sounds panicked
LilyEvans: there's something else going on
WormtailPeter: ...yeah
WormtailPeter: remus is having some kind of crisis
WormtailPeter: and james is trying to help
MarlsAndMe: what kind of crisis?
WormtailPeter: i can't really say
WormtailPeter: but it's serious
WormtailPeter: and it involves something happening in two weeks
MaryMacdonald7: two weeks?
MaryMacdonald7: what happens in two weeks?
WormtailPeter: can't tell you that either
LilyEvans: peter you're being very mysterious
LilyEvans: is this about grant coming to visit?
WormtailPeter: partly
WormtailPeter: wait how do you know about grant?
MarlsAndMe: james mentioned him in the group chat yesterday
MarlsAndMe: said grant sends remus pictures
MarlsAndMe: which is why james thought sending his own picture was normal
WormtailPeter: oh right
WormtailPeter: yeah grant is coming this weekend
MaryMacdonald7: this weekend? during quarantine?
WormtailPeter: remus got special permission somehow
WormtailPeter: something about mental health support
LilyEvans: that's going to be awkward
LilyEvans: james finally figuring out he's attracted to remus
LilyEvans: and then remus's... whatever grant is... shows up
WormtailPeter: yeah that's part of the problem
WormtailPeter: but there's other stuff too
WormtailPeter: stuff with sirius
MarlsAndMe: what about sirius?
MarlsAndMe: he's been even more dramatic than usual lately
WormtailPeter: he tried to help remus last night
WormtailPeter: with whatever remus is panicking about
WormtailPeter: and remus completely shut him down
MaryMacdonald7: shut him down how?
WormtailPeter: basically told him he doesn't trust him
WormtailPeter: that he gave up the right to help when he betrayed him
LilyEvans: betrayed him?
LilyEvans: peter what did sirius do?
WormtailPeter: i really can't tell you
WormtailPeter: but it was bad
WormtailPeter: really really bad
MarlsAndMe: bad enough that remus still won't forgive him?
MarlsAndMe: remus forgives everyone everything
WormtailPeter: not this time
WormtailPeter: this time sirius crossed a line that can't be uncrossed
MaryMacdonald7: what kind of line?
WormtailPeter: the kind that makes you question everything you thought you knew about someone
WormtailPeter: the kind that makes you realize they see you differently than you thought
LilyEvans: peter you're scaring us
LilyEvans: what could sirius possibly have done to remus?
WormtailPeter: something that could have gotten people killed
WormtailPeter: something that nearly turned remus into a killer
MarlsAndMe: WHAT
MaryMacdonald7: peter what are you talking about?
WormtailPeter: i can't
WormtailPeter: i've already said too much
WormtailPeter: but you understand now why remus doesn't trust him
LilyEvans: not really
LilyEvans: "nearly turned remus into a killer" doesn't explain anything
LilyEvans: how do you nearly turn someone into a killer?
WormtailPeter: by putting them in a situation where they might hurt someone
WormtailPeter: without them knowing about it
WormtailPeter: by using them as a weapon
MarlsAndMe: using remus as a weapon?
MarlsAndMe: how do you use someone like remus as a weapon?
MarlsAndMe: he's like the least violent person in the school
WormtailPeter: normally yes
WormtailPeter: but there are... circumstances... where that's not true
MaryMacdonald7: what circumstances?
WormtailPeter: circumstances i absolutely cannot tell you about
WormtailPeter: but trust me when i say sirius knew about these circumstances
WormtailPeter: and used them against someone he didn't like
WormtailPeter: without caring that it would destroy remus if something went wrong
LilyEvans: so sirius used remus to hurt someone else?
WormtailPeter: yes
LilyEvans: and remus could have killed that person?
WormtailPeter: yes
LilyEvans: and remus didn't know it was happening?
WormtailPeter: he had no idea
WormtailPeter: if james hadn't figured it out and stopped it
WormtailPeter: remus would have woken up with blood on his hands
MarlsAndMe: jesus christ
MaryMacdonald7: no wonder remus won't forgive him
MaryMacdonald7: that's not just betrayal that's
MaryMacdonald7: that's evil
WormtailPeter: sirius isn't evil
WormtailPeter: he's just
WormtailPeter: he was angry and he did something stupid and cruel
WormtailPeter: and he's been destroying himself with guilt ever since
LilyEvans: good
LilyEvans: he should feel guilty
WormtailPeter: lily
LilyEvans: no peter
LilyEvans: i don't care how sorry he is
LilyEvans: he tried to trick remus into killing someone
LilyEvans: that's unforgivable
MarlsAndMe: wait who was the target?
MarlsAndMe: who did sirius want remus to hurt?
WormtailPeter: ...snape
MaryMacdonald7: snape?
MaryMacdonald7: sirius tried to get remus to kill severus snape?
WormtailPeter: not kill exactly
WormtailPeter: just
WormtailPeter: hurt
WormtailPeter: or scare
WormtailPeter: i don't think sirius thought it through
LilyEvans: oh he thought it through
LilyEvans: he knew exactly what he was doing
LilyEvans: and he did it anyway
MarlsAndMe: this explains so much
MarlsAndMe: why sirius looks like he wants to die
MarlsAndMe: why remus barely talks to him
MarlsAndMe: why james looks exhausted all the time
WormtailPeter: james has been trying to fix it for over a year
WormtailPeter: but you can't really fix betrayal
WormtailPeter: especially not when remus feels like sirius saw him as a monster
MaryMacdonald7: that's what this is about isn't it?
MaryMacdonald7: remus thinks sirius sees him as dangerous
WormtailPeter: remus thinks sirius sees him as a weapon
WormtailPeter: something to be pointed at enemies
WormtailPeter: not a person to be protected
LilyEvans: and now with this current crisis
LilyEvans: whatever's happening in two weeks
LilyEvans: remus won't let sirius help because he doesn't trust him
WormtailPeter: exactly
WormtailPeter: which is killing sirius
WormtailPeter: because he desperately wants to prove he's changed
MarlsAndMe: has he changed?
WormtailPeter: i think so
WormtailPeter: i hope so
WormtailPeter: but i understand why remus doesn't want to risk finding out
MaryMacdonald7: so what happens now?
MaryMacdonald7: james tries to handle remus's crisis alone?
WormtailPeter: pretty much
WormtailPeter: james and i
WormtailPeter: assuming remus will let us help
LilyEvans: and grant's visit is going to complicate everything
WormtailPeter: yeah
WormtailPeter: james is finally figuring out he likes remus
WormtailPeter: and now he has to watch remus with his... whatever grant is
WormtailPeter: while also trying to help with this other crisis
WormtailPeter: and sirius is going to hate every second of it
MarlsAndMe: because he's still in love with remus
WormtailPeter: and because he can't help
WormtailPeter: and because seeing grant will remind him of everything he lost
MaryMacdonald7: this is going to be a disaster
LilyEvans: is there anything we can do?
WormtailPeter: just... be supportive i guess
WormtailPeter: especially of james
WormtailPeter: he's trying to hold everyone together while figuring out his own stuff
LilyEvans: i'll talk to him
LilyEvans: about the sexuality stuff
LilyEvans: he shouldn't have to figure that out alone on top of everything else
WormtailPeter: he'd like that
WormtailPeter: even if he's terrified of what you'll think
MarlsAndMe: what about sirius?
MarlsAndMe: is there anything anyone can do for him?
WormtailPeter: honestly?
WormtailPeter: i don't think so
WormtailPeter: not until remus decides to forgive him
WormtailPeter: and that might never happen
MaryMacdonald7: you really think remus might never forgive him?
WormtailPeter: would you?
WormtailPeter: if someone you trusted completely used you as a weapon?
WormtailPeter: if they nearly turned you into a killer without your knowledge?
LilyEvans: no
LilyEvans: i don't think i would
MarlsAndMe: but remus forgives everyone
MarlsAndMe: it's like his defining characteristic
WormtailPeter: not this time
WormtailPeter: this cut too deep
WormtailPeter: betrayal is one thing
WormtailPeter: but making someone complicit in violence without their consent?
WormtailPeter: that's something else entirely
MaryMacdonald7: poor sirius
LilyEvans: poor sirius?
LilyEvans: mary he brought this on himself
MaryMacdonald7: i know but
MaryMacdonald7: living with that guilt
MaryMacdonald7: knowing you destroyed the most important relationship in your life
MaryMacdonald7: that would destroy anyone
WormtailPeter: it is destroying him
WormtailPeter: he barely sleeps
WormtailPeter: barely eats
WormtailPeter: spends most of his time staring at remus from across rooms
WormtailPeter: like he's trying to memorize him before he disappears forever
MarlsAndMe: that's heartbreaking
LilyEvans: it's also his own fault
LilyEvans: i'm sorry but i can't feel sorry for someone who tried to trick their friend into committing violence
WormtailPeter: lily he was sixteen
WormtailPeter: and angry
WormtailPeter: and he didn't think it through
LilyEvans: that's not an excuse
LilyEvans: at sixteen you know right from wrong
LilyEvans: you know not to use your friends as weapons
MaryMacdonald7: okay but can we talk about something else?
MaryMacdonald7: this is getting really heavy
MaryMacdonald7: and we still don't know what's happening in two weeks
WormtailPeter: i really can't tell you that
MarlsAndMe: but it's bad enough that james is planning operations to prevent remus from "going feral"
WormtailPeter: feral is just james being dramatic
WormtailPeter: but yes it's potentially serious
LilyEvans: potentially serious how?
WormtailPeter: potentially people could get hurt
WormtailPeter: if we don't handle it right
MaryMacdonald7: people could get hurt?
MaryMacdonald7: peter what is happening in two weeks?
WormtailPeter: i can't
WormtailPeter: it's not my secret to tell
WormtailPeter: but it's related to why sirius's betrayal was so devastating
MarlsAndMe: because it involves remus being dangerous?
WormtailPeter: because it involves remus being vulnerable
WormtailPeter: and potentially dangerous
WormtailPeter: and needing people he trusts to help keep everyone safe
LilyEvans: and sirius isn't one of those people anymore
WormtailPeter: exactly
WormtailPeter: which means it's going to be harder to handle
WormtailPeter: and more dangerous for everyone
MaryMacdonald7: this is why james looks so stressed
MaryMacdonald7: he's trying to figure out his sexuality
MaryMacdonald7: deal with grant's visit
MaryMacdonald7: handle whatever crisis is coming
MaryMacdonald7: and do it all without sirius's help
WormtailPeter: pretty much
WormtailPeter: james is trying to be everything to everyone
WormtailPeter: and he's burning out
MarlsAndMe: which is why lily needs to talk to him
MarlsAndMe: take at least one thing off his plate
LilyEvans: i'll talk to him today
LilyEvans: about the sexuality stuff
LilyEvans: and maybe offer to help with whatever else i can
WormtailPeter: he'll probably cry
WormtailPeter: not because he's upset
WormtailPeter: just because he's so relieved someone wants to help
MaryMacdonald7: poor james
MaryMacdonald7: he always tries to fix everything for everyone
MarlsAndMe: what about you peter?
MarlsAndMe: how are you holding up with all this?
WormtailPeter: honestly?
WormtailPeter: not great
WormtailPeter: watching your best friends hurt each other is awful
WormtailPeter: especially when you understand both sides
WormtailPeter: i love sirius but what he did was unforgivable
WormtailPeter: i love remus but holding onto anger is destroying him too
WormtailPeter: and i love james but he can't fix this no matter how hard he tries
LilyEvans: that sounds exhausting peter
WormtailPeter: it is
WormtailPeter: sometimes i wonder if it would be easier if they just
WormtailPeter: gave up on each other
WormtailPeter: stopped trying to be friends
MaryMacdonald7: you don't mean that
WormtailPeter: sometimes i do
WormtailPeter: it would hurt less than this
WormtailPeter: this constant hope that things might go back to normal
WormtailPeter: followed by the reality that they never will
MarlsAndMe: peter that's really sad
WormtailPeter: yeah well
WormtailPeter: everything's pretty sad right now
WormtailPeter: anyway i should go
WormtailPeter: james is probably planning something complicated and dangerous
WormtailPeter: and someone needs to make sure he doesn't get expelled
LilyEvans: peter
WormtailPeter: yeah?
LilyEvans: thanks for trusting us with all this
LilyEvans: and for looking out for all of them
LilyEvans: you're a good friend
WormtailPeter: thanks lily
WormtailPeter: that means a lot
MaryMacdonald7: and peter?
WormtailPeter: yeah?
MaryMacdonald7: if you need to talk about any of this
MaryMacdonald7: we're here okay?
MaryMacdonald7: you don't have to carry all of this alone
WormtailPeter: thanks mary
WormtailPeter: i might take you up on that
MarlsAndMe: and peter?
MarlsAndMe: try to make sure james gets some sleep
MarlsAndMe: he looked like death this morning
WormtailPeter: i'll try
WormtailPeter: but you know how he gets when he's in problem-solving mode
LilyEvans: unfortunately yes
LilyEvans: tell him i want to talk to him later
LilyEvans: about everything
WormtailPeter: will do
WormtailPeter: he'll probably be terrified and excited in equal measure
MaryMacdonald7: good luck peter
MaryMacdonald7: with everything
WormtailPeter: thanks
WormtailPeter: we're going to need it
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MarlsAndMe: well that was
MarlsAndMe: intense
MaryMacdonald7: no wonder they all look exhausted
LilyEvans: i can't believe sirius did that to remus
LilyEvans: using him as a weapon against snape
MarlsAndMe: and now james is trying to handle some kind of crisis alone
MarlsAndMe: while figuring out his sexuality
MarlsAndMe: and dealing with grant's visit
MaryMacdonald7: this weekend is going to be a disaster
LilyEvans: maybe
LilyEvans: or maybe it's what they all need
LilyEvans: some kind of resolution
MarlsAndMe: you're very optimistic
LilyEvans: someone has to be
LilyEvans: and if james is going to confess his feelings
LilyEvans: i want to make sure he's in a good headspace for it
MaryMacdonald7: that's very sweet lily
MaryMacdonald7: and not at all because you're jealous
LilyEvans: i am not jealous
MarlsAndMe: sure you're not
LilyEvans: i'm being supportive
LilyEvans: like a good friend
MaryMacdonald7: whatever you say
MaryMacdonald7: anyway this has been very educational
MarlsAndMe: definitely
MarlsAndMe: i'm going to look at all of them completely differently now
LilyEvans: just remember what peter said
LilyEvans: they're complicated people with complicated lives
LilyEvans: they deserve our compassion
LilyEvans: even sirius
MaryMacdonald7: even sirius
MarlsAndMe: especially sirius
MarlsAndMe: living with that guilt must be hell
LilyEvans: it should be
LilyEvans: but maybe someday he'll find a way to make it right
MaryMacdonald7: maybe
MaryMacdonald7: anyway i should get ready for breakfast
MaryMacdonald7: this conversation has given me a lot to think about
MarlsAndMe: same
MarlsAndMe: see you both later
LilyEvans: bye
LilyEvans: and remember
LilyEvans: not a word of this to anyone else
MaryMacdonald7: obviously
MarlsAndMe: our lips are sealed
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